Sunday, July 30, 2006

i thought i heard a group of people cheering outside my house just now while i was half asleep.
like, huh?! some orientation going on here?
and they woke me up!
i'm so tired.
boo.

hui'e celebrated her 22nd birthday yesterday.
haa.
well it was quite fun lah.
emily told me something whici i wouldnt wanna know bout hall 8.
-_-
haha leya and i did something obscene and most people freaked out.
i adore that girl lah (:
she's so sweet!
haha.
zhenwei is so cute.
reminds me of hamzilla haha.
and marc was really nice.
caren and i sure can bitch alot.
and emily's another cutie pie.
and needless to say, i totally love that birthday girl.
(((:

sigh.
gotta go already.
will be in hall till saturday i guess.
as usual, you know i love you guys.
haha.

i'm soooo gonna miss hamzilla.

take care all.

Sometimes, it's a pair of passing eyes
Or it's just the way someone is talking
And there you are
Am I all alone?
Don't you ever wake up
And reach for me
Where I used to be?
Is there any chance?
I just can't believe
You're not lonely, too
Just for me and you

you're special (:

Saturday, July 29, 2006

yesterday was hell.
reached ntu and got our keys.
our room is on the 6th floor!
grrrrr.
and being me who hardly does any house keeping at home, cleaning
the place was a torture.
mainly because the room seemed to be vacant since god-knows-when!
we mopped the floor 3 times and the water in the pail was like so filthy!
omg lah i tell you.
i'm totally not looking forward to living in hall.
gonna bring the vaccum cleaner tomorrow!
hah.

von they all bought a cake for pl whose birthday was yesterday.
due to the strong breeze (ha! benefit of living on the 6th floor - self consolation actually) we failed to light up that single candle in spite of the umpteen attempts made.
haha.
anyway pl didnt look surprise.
aiyo.

after pl and von were done with their cleaning, headed to bedok 85.
picked yf on the way.
yisi drove all the way from ntu to bedok 85.
to be honest, i find it quite admirable.
maybe because its a known fact that i've almost zero directional sense.
had a feast at 85.
nice.
someone even got lost in 85.
HAHA

am supposed to go to mj for speech day but pl's moving in today.
and i've to pack all my stuff by today.
leonard was asking if i was migrating because i'm like moving everything!
hah.
that idiot!
bernard's driving us tomorrow! yay.
a male's needed to carry those heavy luggage up 6 floors you see.
LoL.
oh he's my cousin by the way.

am supposed to go roller blading now lah!
sigh.

okay back to packing.
zzz.

gabe, nobody can decide for you the outcome.
it's been draggin' on for so long already.
i know part of you want to let go.
and a part of you cant bear to, that explains your indecisive-ness.
you've to make a choice soon.
it may not be the right one, but it beats sitting on the fence.
lets go camping soon okay!
everything will be alright (:

boys are twice as complicated as they think girls are.
if-a two letter word for futility.

Friday, July 28, 2006

thats joanne and i at spms orientation. haha. eons ago but well...























alone far far away.


i know one of the things that i'm afraid of now.
and that's being too close to you.
to be honest, it was okay in the past.
at least it was bearable.
but now, its different.
i dont wanna be too attached to you.
it'll be rending knowing you're so far away.
then again, i'm not quite sure if i'm now.

i cant explain how i felt just now.
and i'm clueless why.

Thursday, July 27, 2006

oh yes went back to mj today.
heard they did really badly for their mids.
we did terrible last year but i heard this year's much worst.
with only 4% passing econs.
and they're supposed to be the more diligent batch.
haha.

met adebao later at suntec to get hui'e's present.
i'm so gonna miss her and the others after school starts =(
so far apart.

if i lay here, if i just lay here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world

i don't quite know how to say how i feel
let's waste time chasing cars around our heads

i don't know where, confused about how as well.
i'm afraid of the changes coming my way.
it's not that i won't be able to handle them.
but because i don't want them to happen.
then again, certain things are beyond our control.

honestly, where has it gone to?
ironically, i'm not sure if i want it back.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

i'm supposed to be on my way to changi naval base to meet julian and the american aircraft carrier.
but im too lazy to move my ass.

and you!
save it please.
you're far from being significant.

and i absolutely find it disgusting to receive messages from strangers.
the thought of it irks me!
TOTALLY.

Monday, July 24, 2006

haha! anthony sent this horoscope thingy.
quite true.

GEMINI WOMAN

She is a dreamer and has many dreams. She is eager to learn something new all the time. Even she is the 2 in 1 mixed character type,she is quite lucky in love. You have to put all your efforts to win her affection. Even when she likes you and wonder about your wit, she will also see and inspect your bad side at the same time, because it is in her nature. She's able to keep all kinds of mixed emotions without annoying you or letting you know at all. She can cheer you up by acting like a free little bird. Her conversation will not bore you. She is able to talk to you in any subjects. She can make you feel like you are the luckiest man alive. She can make you feel like she needs all your care, but once she needs to stand alone, she can stand alone firmly and comfortably.

She can be your best buddy and talk to you about anything. She can join all your activities with the same energy that you have. She is a quick witted person and learn new things very fast. She can see your projects and she can give you good advice. If she thinks you are not sure that you want her for yourself, she will act like your best friend only, a cool woman. She can easily make a guy fall in love with her. Her multiple changes and many moods is a "Charm" for many men. She can be laughing for 2minutes and later suddenly quiet. She wants to find only 1 true love and she wants to meet her dream guy. She expects a lot and nearly too much.She is constantly waiting for her knight shinning armor even she is with a steady boyfriend.

She can fall in love or fond of someone else while she is with you. If you break up with her, she will forget you quite fast, because change is in her nature. The Gemini woman breaks more heart than woman in other Zodiac. Because she is a dreamer and always waiting for her knight shinning armor ,so her love life can be complex or a mess. She hates to write a long letter, so if you write her a letter and expect a prompt reply, forget it. Because she has multiple personality and multiple ideas, so she hates to put them down in written proof. Because she knows what she believe today can be different tomorrow.

She could communication with more than 1 language, a real gifted linguistic. If she wants to tell you any bad comments, she won't say itstraight away, but she will talk to you about many other things andaccidentally come to that subject without offending you. Normally she will not lie.

She will work hard and once a while take a long rest. She can get bored and tired with her own surrounding more than at work. She never feels content with her present work, money, or reputations, shewill drive to have more.Don't ask her what is her ultimate contentment for she will not have an answer.

Once you get to know her, she will be a supportive person and always be beside you. She has a beautiful dream and she loves to have someone to walk side by side with her, together and equally.

LOL.


aiyo i'm really worn out.
but had a splendid weekend!
haha.

saturday was spent at east coast park roller blading.
met anthony who was also there.
he's my ex-boss at fedex.
oh he just told me he dyed his hair blue!
ah i want purple!
hahaha.
so erm, after 2hours, headed to the airport.
visited parmesh and 'explored' the place.
coconut's a mountain turtle you see.
hahaha.
somehow or rather, we spent like 4 hours there.
doing nothing but wandering about aimlessly.
caught nacho libre thereafter.
an impromptu decision.
slacked at mcdonalds for some unknown reason after that.
oh watched yx photoshopping the photos perhaps
haha.
got home bout 3+.
ran up after alighting from the cab cuz i was scared.
stupid coconut and taxi driver laughed.

went to sentosa in the afternoon on sunday.
impromptu decision (again)
they really had fun torturing me lah.
-_-
headed to kbox after that.
sad songs became comical songs.
haiyo! haha.

despite the fact that there were only 3 of us, quite fun also lah
haha.
and for 2 consecutive days, leo and yx bombarded me with their experiences with spirits and all.
damn scary okay.
i'll definitely leave before 7 if i were to ever go to leonard's house again.
AH!

my neck, back and arm are aching.
must be their fault.
haha.

and today, shopping.
period.

okay i'm really really tired now.
coconuttttttttttttttttttttttttt, send me the pics!
hurry.

something julian wrote for me:

her face sweet, and her style street, i thought i'd give her a deep.
she's got 2 hams, jointly called hamzilla
and in a week they're moving to the ntu hostel villa.
she likes wearing kicks with wheels and i think she'd look fly in heels.
she's popular but heartbroken, and there's feelings she keeps unspoken, till she's high then she lets if fly.
though im trying to be a rapper, these rhymes'll make you laugh like the mad hatter.
for all the boys just trying to take advantage by being nice, beware this girl's the devil in disguise.
so i conclude with a special note, this is done without drugs or dope.
peace.

lol.
funny ar!

Friday, July 21, 2006

Thursday, July 20, 2006

It's funny how life gets at times.
Here's a guy saying how much he treasures you.
How much he wants to protect you.
How much he wants to bring you outta misery.
How much he hopes to bring you happiness.
It all seems ideal, doesnt it.
But sadly, no.
Because you dont care who treasures you but him.
Because you only want to be protected by him.
Because he is the cause of your misery.
Because only he could bring you happiness.
See, thats how screwed life gets sometimes.

Sometimes when a decision is made,
It doesnt alleviate any pain.
At least not instantly.
But perhaps it'd turn out to be a wise one for the long run.

Things will get better.
I promise.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

when you've fallen for someone, even the smartest person starts doing silly things.
how could you even say that?!
how could you say you wouldnt mind even if i dont like you as much as you do?
what you've said touched me. (not the above but other things)
but its totally unfair to accept you.
the idea itself is untenable.

and at the same time, michael shocked me with what he'd said.
i guess this is the worst feeling ever.
wanting to love someone but couldn't.

i sometimes wonder how it feels like to be bubu and yangyang.
with a person like me who has itchy fingers as an owner.
you know, waking them up when they're alseep. (not intentionally! just that they look soooo cute curled up when they're sleeping)
carrying them in and out of the cages.
cracking open sunflower seeds for them.
feeding them hamster chocolates, or whatever they're called.
kissing them even if they stink.
ah i think they feel so loved by me.
=D

sheesh.
i've been sleeping too much.
wayyyy to much.

my ulcer hurts big time!
big big time!

you're out of my league.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

There was once a guy who was very much in love with his girl.
This romantic guy folded 1,000 pieces of paper cranes as a gift to his girl.
Although he was just a small fry in his company then and his future seemed bleak, they were very happy together.
One day, his girl told him that she was going to Paris and would never return.
She also told that him that she couldnt visualize any future for the both of them.
Heartbroken, the guy agreed and they went their own ways there and then...

But when he regained his confidence, he worked hard day and night, slogging his body and mind just to make something out of himself.
Finally, with the hard work and help from friends, this guy managed to set up his own company .

One rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rain walking to some destination.
It didn't take him long to realize they were his girl's parents.
Wanting to get back at them, he drove slowly beside the couple, wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan.
He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same any more; he had made it.
What he saw next confused him.
The couple was walking towards a cemetery,
He got out of his car and followed them.
That was when he saw his girl, a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him and beside her tombstone were the paper cranes he'd given her.
Her parents saw him then and he asked what happened.
They explained, she did not leave for Paris at all.
She was ill with cancer.
She had believed that he'd make it someday, but she did not want to be his burden.
Therefore she had chosen to leave him.

She had wanted her parents to put his paper cranes beside her,
because if the day comes when fate brings him to her again, he can take some of those back with him.

Once you have loved, you will always love.
For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever.

Find time to realize that there is one person who means so much to you, for you might wake up one morning losing that person whom you thought meant nothing to you.

mum sent me this.
like, huh?!
but quite sad lah.
the story i mean.

Monday, July 17, 2006

shopping at queenstown today.
angela got her sneakers.
like, finally!
because since jc2, she'd been wanting to buy something but they always didnt have her size.
hahaha.
we accompanied her all the way there.
but we ended up in clementi because of her.
hahaha.
got cranky and all in the bus.
moments spent with them are always boisterous.
heh.

i'm so into baking now!
yes i know, unbelievable.
pretty please dont let it be a disaster next week.

okay stupid leonard aka coconut wrote a testi for himself because he's able to access my friendster account now.
and dino misses me okay!
ahaha.
and since when did i owe you a pic?
since sec4 somemore.
like, huh?!!
haha

2 weeks before orientation starts.
3 weeks before school starts.

and we only have 2 days to move our barang barang to hall after 26th.
god bless angela and i.

here's a very nice song that touched me deeply.

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high
I don't want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

Here tonight

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Everytime you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high
I don't want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
I don't want to run away, I want to stay forever, through time and time..
No promises

I don't wanna run away, I don't wanna be alone
No Promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love
No promises

I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight.

reality has set in.
it seems futile.
so lost.
i want.
but i cant.
i guess we'll be out of each others' live pretty soon.

Sunday, July 16, 2006

ah yesterday.
got a little burnt after roller blading yesterday morning.
caught the sg idols yesterday at tm!
joakim!!!
hahahaha.
bumped into dave.
and he said something like, he wasnt sure if it was me when i walked pass him but my pattern confirmed it.
was like, huh!
okay lah his colleagues said i looked radiant and pretty.
shall forgive him then.
muhahahaha.

walked dino after that.
didnt know what to do with his poo poo but flee.
hahaha.
leonard's new nick is coconut.
coconut's sucha cheater at pool.
and extremely suagu to the max.
lol.
2m pix big ar!
3g phone big ar!
zzz.

i dreamt of jon last night.
and woke up at 4am in a daze.
it felt so real.
but yeah i know it's over.

am amazed at the number of people i've blocked on msn.
i aint wicked okay.
just dont know why there's such a long list
haha.
anyway i dont know anyone i've blocked.
or maybe i cant remember them
haha.
say joakim sucks and you'll be in that list!
grrrrrrr.

just when i thought linus would get at least 50% of his fees subsidised, mum dropped a bomb shell.
her company doesnt sudsidise SIM.
like, huh!
haiyoh.

i'm like counting down to when my freedom comes to a halt.
and its in exactly 2 weeks!
sigh.

sometimes i feel like i'll have the strength to move on.
but at times, i just wanna succumb.
i'm trying.
but it seems like i'm falling apart.
i cant seem to shut you away from my life.
i've been trying to control my emotions.
but its getting harder as time passes by.
i guess there's only one way in which i'll really give up.......




coconut! haha




Dino!









my favourite photo!!!




















happy birthday.

it's been a couple of months since i last saw you.
just wanna say i've never forgotten you.
please cut down on your alcohol consumption.
take care jon.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

dont cry for me.
please, dont.

Friday, July 14, 2006

you've no idea how wretched i feel right now.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

talking to you has become a chore now.
i'm sick of it.





















your abrupt appearance in my life created a stir of confusion.
admittedly, i'm the one at fault.
i didnt want to mislead you into anything deeper.
but i guess that very intention caused you to descend deeper unknowingly.
i gave the wrong signals.
i did the wrong things.
i didnt do things that i ought to.
i am the conceited one.
i'm really remorseful of the sorrow i've inflicted in you.
i didnt know that my presence was so significant to you.
or rather, i knew.
but i chose not to be credulous.
when i heard the song and saw the presentation you've done for me, it touched me deeply.
i was left speechless.
but it isnt right to accept you just because i'm touched by your actions.
i'm aware that apologies are pointless.
those wouldnt alleviate the hurt that's excruciating.
but i want you to know i really appreciate every single thing you've done for me.
i've never regretted knowing you.
please, dont wait for me.
i'm not the one who's able to bring you happiness.
you deserve someone better.
someone who loves you as much as you love her.
yes i know saying this wouldnt make things better.
but i cant do it.
i really cant.
i'm sorry.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

okay am back from camp.
all i can say is, the seniors ought to sign up for leadership camps.
but my og mates are fun (:
jeremy's hot lah.
hahahaha.
just kidding.

my legs are covered with bruises and ive zero idea why.
my body's aching and i'm exhausted.
ntu is like so huge and there's so many hills.
grrrrrr.

look, i'm really sick of "entertaining" you.
just buzz off lah.
you can delete my number for all i care.
then why bother messaging me?
and you ask stuff like whether im sad to hear that.
like, wth
what the heck do you want me to say?
oh im freaking upset.
please add me back to your contact!
like hello, who are you to me?!?
why are you always asking me so many frigging questions!!!!
grrrr.

and this irritating weirdo sent me an sms saying somehow my number is in his phone and he's no idea why.
and when i asked what's the name saved under, he said it just has the number.
such an irritant lah
i dont have time for people like this.

i think guys in number 4 look cool.
so man!
haha i'm mad.

supposed to meet kelvin for supper.
but im super tired lah.
kinda embarrassed for rejecting him so many times.
ahaha.













i seem to be living in the past.

Sunday, July 09, 2006

hey girls, the link is here

theroyal.shutterfly.com/action/?a=0AbuHLdi3bMmLjg

today was funfunfun!
seriously, sometimes its not the things or the places you do and go.
its the company.
(:

okay am off to camp tomorrow.
just hope i dont cough out my lungs tomorrow.
take care everyone (:
you know i love you all.
hehehe.


am worn out.
went to the ndp preview just now.
hahaha.
it was okay lah.
the fireworks display was the best.
so beautiful yet its short-lived.
and as usual angela was a tad "zi high"
you know?
hahahaha.

headed to the airport for supper after much discussion.
haha.
oh yes, think we made a fool of ourselves in the train just now
-_-
anyway, it reminded us of the times spent back when we were in mj.
having the same meals, waiting for their guitar lessons to start.
or just simply slacking.

speaking of which, its already july.
cant believe we havent been schooling for about 7 months after a's.
and school's commencing in about a month's time.
was discussing with angela just now about hall stuff.
we'll know which hall we'll be on 26th.
which leaves us about 3 days to move our barang barang to the hostel before hall orientation starts.
there's like sooo much stuff lah.
haiyo.
and we'll be staying in hall 5days outta 7days a week.
have never been away from home for so long.
family, friends and ... are all way back here in the east.
everything that's familiar would be so far away from me.
ahhh.
getting emo already.
yeah i sound like i'm going overseas -_-

and camp's next monday.
okay its totally weird.
staying over with a bunch of people i havent even seen before.
the last time this happened was way back in sec3 during obs camp.
hope everything goes well huh.
heh heh.






























it's like a part of me is gone.
and i'm twisted cos one side of me is telling me that i need to move on, but on the other side, i just wanna break down and cry.

Friday, July 07, 2006

went back to mj today.
that place certainly encompasses many memories.
a period 2years isnt long, but it isnt exactly short either.
well well.
yeah i'm feeling nostalgic again.

headed to kbox at paradiz.
5hours straight of singing, yelling and laughing.
i finished the entire pack of strepsils and my tummy ached like hell -_-
ahh my throat feels so uneasy.
sigh.

ok some random pictures are up.

nobody knows how much more i'm actually feeling.
and all these can only be suppressed deep inside.
i still get lost in your eyes.
closing my eyes, you chase my thoughts away.
till someone new replaces me, i'll be there.














look at the ghost on the left.




look, i'm disappearing.




we're in love.




frenzy




theroyal and angelala














look at peilin! haha

back in mjc. the daunting sign. haha.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

was browsing through my archives when i came across this ; got it from the first few entries.

star :"if he keeps hurting you why dont you just leave him?"
me :"star, will you ever leave your sky?"

sigh.
we dont always get what we want.

ich vermisse Sie.
i really do.


i will go on without him
like a fool who's too sure
like a bird who's lost her wing
a fire without its flame.

i dont always totally recover.
i bounce back.
i breathe again.
life goes on.
but the bad memories almost always remain.

if we were to start again from the beginning, would you have done the same thing?
would you say 'hi' if we bump into each other on the streets in future?

in life, we lose some things and we gain some.
whether its the former or latter, life goes on.
time doesnt stop for your sake.
now i'm biding farewell to everything i thought i knew.
to you, the one thing that i tried to hold on to

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

so lan-ing is more important when you could go on other days.
i just wanna burst out laughing whenever i think of this.
and you sounded like you didnt care.
thanks kiddo.
you've enlightened me that things would never work out between us for sure.
/waves goodbye.
its for real this time.

oh i just received the email regarding spms orientation next week!
yay (:
i love camps
heh heh

actually its hurting.
alot.
but we just gotta move on.


hello hello!
last night was fun!
met up with hui'e, leya, emily, caren, angela, marc and zhenwei.
think i got a little hyper.
zzzz.
i like leya.
because i'm taller than her >=)

yawns.
bbq's postponed cuz of some personal reasons (jason's not mine.)
ahhh :(

ok im gonna rant again.
there's so much construction work going on.
damn damn noisy lah.
and i could even feel the sink and floor vibrating.
i'd the sudden urge of throwing rotten eggs at the "drillers" just now.
hahahaha >=]

we all have our time machines.
some take us back, they're called memories.
some take us forward, they're called dreams.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

ah im at powermatic industry now doing a receptionist job.
its freaking boring and i've another 4hours more to go.
and this place is really inaccessible!
its super far away from the bus stop.
how i found this ulu-ated building was by sheer luck!
i was walking under the blazing sun, grumbling and fanning myself concurrently (yeah like some tai tai) while comtemplating whether i should just hop onto a cab (comtemplate because i knew it was somewhere near and the cabbie would probably think im some suagu. happened many times already and the cab fares were like $2+. embarrassing ok.) i happened to look up and AH! saw the freaking building!
then when i reached, couldnt find the damn lift!
angry know.
anyway, earlier on a group of ladies arrived wanting to advertise some stuff.
and judging from their red faces, i bet they walked damn long before they found this ulu-ated building and couldnt find the lift when they reached also.
hahahaha
then this lady approached me with an apologetic look and said, "i know you're very busy but could i just take up a few minutes of your time?"
i was actually "busy" on msn
xD

oh yeah shopping with angela and pl yesterday.
that yf lah, got chalet.
anyway, pl's appeal into ntu was successful!
yay.
hahaha.

joe's proud of knowing me because of some half-witted comments made by his friends when they saw my photo.
get a life please.

ok enough of these idle talks.

how i felt last night was shuddersome.
it was precisely what i'd been so afraid of feeling.
does it mean something when i felt that way?
yes it does.

Sunday, July 02, 2006

okay i'm having a freaking sore throat now.
grrr.

yesterday was... fun in a nonsensical way.
met jiangyang!
like, finally.
should have a first 3 months gathering soon.
but stupid yunsheng is in ns and he is supposed to be the organizer -_-
so anyway, went to get his helmet cuz he's starting his lessons next week.
then we walked to bugis.
saw the superband contestants but am too short so couldnt see anything.
so we walked to suntec.
and walked and walked.
then walked to millennia walk.
and walked to marina square.
then i had the worst starbucks drink ever.
then we walked to raffles city.
and walked and walked.
bet he has never walked so much in his life before.
heh.

and i managed to resist spending yesterday!
because... we're going on a spree on monday.
oh well.
hahaha.

anyway i miss jy's bouncy hair lah.
its so short now.
he's a funny guy.
talked bout his ns stuff which is really whacky and alot of inane but goofy stuff.
whenever i went, "hey that guy looks cute!"
he'd say, " where? where?"
hahaha.
when you put 2 people who's full of rubbish, thats what happens.
2 clowns wandering about aimlessly.

and then headed to lau pa sat.
and all i could think of was my bed and air-con.

i know it sucks terribly to love or like someone alot who does not feel the same.
i know it's nobody's fault.
i know it's inevitable that someone gets hurt.
but i know how it feels like to hang on to someone who doesnt even wanna talk to you, let alone like you.
the agony inflicted cant be simplified into words.
its like you'll start to question how it feels like to be happy.
you'll start to wonder whether you'd ever feel joyous and blissful again.
you feel lamented.
thats probably why i feel guilty.
because i'm aware of the pain i've inflicted.
it isnt just simply sadness.
its like everything seems bleak now.
i really dont want all these to happen.
i'm sorry.
i just cant handle such things right.
please dont be so nice.
sigh.
































because there's too much i want to say; because there's too much i can't say.
i miss.

Saturday, July 01, 2006

you said you wont pressurize me.
but for the past few days, you've been like a tape recorder bombasting me with repeated questions i cant answer.
all the hogwash is a repetition.
i'm sorry because i know i've been raucous and ambiguous recently.
but it's really tiring.
and i know you feel tired too.
i dont have the strength to pacify you every few days.
all i wanna do now is to isolate myself away from all these.
i know its a self-centered thought.
cuz i've no idea what to do now.

people in the danger zone.
please.
give me a break.

Thoughts

Everytime your love is near
And every time I'm filled with fear
Cuz every time I see your face
Could it be that this will be the one that lasts?
The fear does start to erase every time
Oh could it be that this will be the one that lasts
For all my times

Her

elizabeth; TheRoyal
since 1987
meridian jc. ntu (spms)
ntu hall 8; khalanx
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